HOLIDAY BLUES ANYONE?

It’s been a while since I wrote you all an empowering blog. And with all of these holidays, well many of us can use it. Holidays are hard, it seems like during these months all of our feelings are amplified. We find ourselves missing loved ones that have passed more than usual. We also seem to feel even lonelier if we haven’t found a significant other. Everyone gets engaged during the holidays, everyone seems to be having babies or making baby announcements. And if you are anything like me, you are watching this nonsense go down while in your bed, eating ice cream and wondering if you will ever be that happy again?

So how do you fix these holiday blues? Focus on WHAT YOU DO HAVE!! For all those who know my story, you know how much I have lost in the last years. So what does a jaded woman like me focus on? Sometimes it’s just the little things.

It’s the silence in my own apartment , the place I’ve learned to call home. The place where I pay for every bill, every everything. I take pride in being a single/co-parenting mother who can provide for her babies by herself. I focus on my boys, who are healthy and intelligent, and some serious smart-asses! You learn to find comfort in the family you do have. Because with time, as the family pictures get smaller you learn that god takes those people back one day. So you love them, you hold them tightly, and you tell yourself that you have more than some other people will ever have in their life. You learn to love the screaming of all the kids around you, because these are your babies, your nieces, your nephews, and you are blessed enough to watch them grow up right in front of you.

So forget the stupid engagements, baby announcements, and so on. Hold on to what you have in front of you. Because I can almost guarantee, those pictures being plastered on social media are just one second caught in time, every picture has a story behind it. And with that often times comes lies, truth, and heartache they don’t show us. So don’t compare your life to the stupid pictures you see on social media. Love your life because god has given you another day to love it. And he has also granted all the people you love another day to fill your heart with happiness.

 

SO HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO YOU ALL MY DEAR, DEAR READERS!!!!!!!!!!! AND ALWAYS REMEMBER “LOVE THE PEOPLE GOD GAVE YOU, CAUSE ONE DAY HE WILL TAKE THEM BACK”

 

LOVE YOU ALL,

-A

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What’s new?

Blog readers! I’ve missed you all! I know, I disappeared on you all but I tend to do that from time to time. So what’s new? Well still haven’t found prince charming, haven’t killed my ex-husband, haven’t killed his new whore, basically not much HAHA! However; here is what is new! I have been working on a book! Yes readers, it’s happening. For 3 years now I have remained anonymous but with this, well I guess you will all know who I am. And while that scares me shitless, like I have said, this is ME! The good, the bad, and the hot-mess-express that I am. SO what will this book look like? Well fuck do I know! What I have done is begun to put the pieces of my life from the day it fell apart together and onto paper. As you can imagine, it’s hard on the soul. It’s like reliving the saddest parts of your life and wishing you could change your own script. As most of you know, we can’t change our old script, it already been written in stone. What we can do, is try and write our current script to the best of our liking. I can promise it still won’t turn out the way you want it to, BUT sometimes things can turn out better. I will post small previews of my book on here. None will be in order, because nothing is in damn order in my life! But it will allow for you all to take a glimpse into my story just a bit more. There has also been an executive decision made on my part, IF publishers who are looking into my writing, have a “different vision” for the book than what feels right for me, I WILL SELF PUBLISH. Foolish girl? Maybe. But this is my life, my script, my mess! The following post will be my book intro.

I LOVE YOU ALL DEAR READERS! FROM THE FIRST 10 OF YOU, TO THE 15,000+ OF YOU!

LOVE YOU ALL,

-A