Its been about four months since my last post, and first off I want to thank and send tons of love to my now 1,100 blog readers 🙂
I have plenty of messages from people asking me questions, wanting updates, well among these I found the question of ” what would you share with other women that you wish they all knew?” well here it is:
There is so much that I could share with you about my last four months, but the truth is my journey has brought me to a place where it is clear that I have one message to send across. Never underestimate the power of a strong woman. The power to stay, leave, forgive, to keep living on after all has fallen apart, never underestimate. Like I have said before, life is a crazy roller coaster, we have highs and we have lows, but we keep moving forward if we allow ourselves to. This blog is more geared towards my female readers (that’s right bitches, girls power). I want to express one thing to you all, no matter what stage in life you find yourself in, single, dating, in a relationship, married, separated, or divorced you must continue to strive to better yourself. A wise woman once said that the smartest thing a woman can teach herself is to NEVER need a man. Want them all you want ladies, but don’t ever NEED them. Like so many others I have found myself in a relationship that had its own abusive issues, what I learned through this is there is a sense of power attached to being able to take care of yourself and your children without needing anyone else. You must be able to stand on your own two feet, and if you cant today then ask yourself what you are doing today so that you are closer to standing on your own tomorrow. Remember if you want to make god laugh tell him your plans, learn to be ok alone, learn to be brave, learn to be fearless! That doesn’t mean we don’t slip and fall and land on our damn face, hell I do this weekly….. like its a dang ritual. But remember even when you fall, getting back up is that step forward and we need forward… forward is good, doesn’t matter if your run, walk, tip-toe, or crawl, just don’t stop moving forward. A good friend once told me that from rock bottom there is nothing to be scarred of, walking away from an abusive relationship is a step forward. What can possibly happen that hasn’t already happened? You’ve lived it, you’ve lived through it! As two of my most amazing friends tell me daily…. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming…..
P.S- For you 20+ readers who want an update on my love life…. Well….. I am still single lol
I finally kicked that addiction and by that I mean him. That is not to say I hold hard feeling, Actually its the opposite, I am grateful for the time I had with him, I am thankful for the role he played in my life when things were so dark. No, we don’t speak anymore but I wish him nothing but the best in life.
Did I meet someone else? Well duh! Around January I began to see someone new, we shall call him “Mr.E” well things were amazing and easy with E, he was thoughtful and sweet, kind, and most of all he had lived my exact life with his ex. Match made in heartbreak heaven right? Well about a month ago I called it quits with E due to some differences that I didn’t think we could get past. I know, I know…. sadness! On a side note, some time has gone by and Mr.E who never gave up, never stopped texting, calling, asking me out… may be slowly beginning to melt small parts of my black jaded little heart. I shall keep you all updated.
On another note, during the break from Mr.E an old blast from the past re-entered my life. And as amazing as that was, it was short lived 😦
He now finds him self in far far away land. And well I am here, moving forward as we always should.
That’s about all I got for now! I will try harder to blog more frequently.
She knows what it means to feel broken.
Her attitude may have changes.
Her heart a bit cold.
But deep down she’s still a good woman
she can learn to love again”